Good, you're still with me! Now I've come to the tail end of my
story. Of course, this tail end continues on every day for the rest of my
I am still learning about what God has for me. Every once in a while
God lets me know I am doing fine. He is revealing things to me a piece at a
I have been praying for understanding and wisdom. I have been
praying to be used. I have been learning more and more about the Lord by
reading my Bible. He has been opening my understanding about a lot of
I am also praying that He reveal anything in my life that hinders
my walk with Him. I don't want anything standing in the way of my being used
by Him. In other words, I'm continuing the dying-to-self as I strive
to be in His will 100% of the time.
The Lord has shown me quite a few important things. He has shown me
that everything is all about love. Without love for God and for people I
cannot be used by Him. Everything He wants me to do has to do with love.
Without love I am unusable.
He has told me that He will teach me everything I need to know. I am
spending as much time as I can in the Word and in prayer. Satan
roadblocks into my path to try to keep my mind on other things. I am only
temporarily sidetracked. I have my mind focused on the Lord. I am learning
how to abide in Him. I am slowly but surely emptying myself of myself and
filling myself with Him.
I want to be like Jesus. I want to love people with His heart and
see people through His eyes. I am trying to be continually in touch through
prayer. I am trying to ask His advice about everything. I am trying to speak
words of which He would approve. Do I always succeed? No, not by a long
shot. Does He condemn me for it? No, not at all. He just offers me His love
and forgives my mistakes.I sure do love Him!
I find it is very difficult to socialize with people who don't know
the Lord. That is what I want to talk about and they don't want to hear it.
Even my family gets tired of hearing me go on and on about Him. My mom
thought I was crazy. My husband thinks I'm crazy. It hurts to not be able to discuss these things with my family and have them
support me and encourage me. Yet, I continue to have hope that they
will come to that knowledge some day.
I went through over two years of what I believe was a very
severe dying process to eliminate some things that were deeply imbedded
in me. Since I've come back from that desert time I have been in a
different place regarding hearing the Lord's voice. I guess what
I'm saying is that the way I hear God is continually changing.
God has "graduated" me from hearing His voice in my head to more
of a "knowing" His will. I'm guessing that He wanted me to know His
will in a split second instead of waiting for it. So, I have to be
even more careful as I go through each day to make sure that He and I are on
the same page every single second of every single minute of every single
Lord, I pray for the person reading this. I pray that they might
feel your love wash over them. I pray they might hear your voice. I pray
they desire to know what your will is for their life and that they make the
decision to let go of their life and allow you to have it. I pray they
discover the gifts you have given them and allow those gifts to be used for
the edification of the body.And Lord, thank you for using
me.In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.